my critical disease pt.1

''Letting go

Does it better for me to letting go, than,

fighting for something that I am not sure if it

Would work good for me? 

Well basically, 

I work hard in my mind

about getting rid of my own feelings and stress. 

It's now, not working good for me and

I failed on saving my own from a critical disease

And this disease is what is holding me back? 

Isn't it belong to me? 

Should I let me go? 

Cause like:

Unknowing things hopefully will kill me, 

This disease hopefully will kill me, 

If I really stop trying. 

Then I start getting more confused

I am confused, about how should I proceed me. 

While I want to di- or want I? 

All wishes are seems empty beneath my disease

That hopefully gonna kill me

Isn't it all belong to me? 

What would work good for me? 

Cause now I am really confused about how to proceed me. 

I am slowly

Not writing 

Stopping trying

Help me"